Is our secret safe tonight
And are we out of sight
Or will our world come tumbling down?
Will they find our hiding place
Is this our last embrace
Or will the walls start caving in?

Love is our resistance
They'll keep us apart and they won't to stop breaking us down
Hold me
Our lips must always be sealed

Resistance - Muse














for someone who just found a liking for muse

good ol' arctic monkeys (:

im so bloated from dinner. hahaah. we got so lazy that we ordered kfc. got up today with a freakin aching back from dance. yesterday was terrible. i woke up and thought it was going to be a great day to sit back and relax. but then it got terrible and got worse. i couldnt stop my tears and i didnt know why. thank you li ying, crystal, nina, kelvin, june, mel. you guys got me through. yesterday i learnt that i've changed. i began to isolate my inner feelings from my closest friends. when i felt the stress, i kept it to myself. i dont have a hobby anymore. nothing to take my mind off things. cca used to do the trick. but now, it just adds to it.

but ive gotta get up and move out of this slum. no use crying over myself. gawd i should have slapped that side of me that whined and whined in the radio room. thanks so much for hearing through that verbal diarrhoea girls. you guys are one in a million. and june, thanks for listening through my uncontrollable sobs at the bus stop. you guys are what it takes to become me.

im feeling much better. much, much better. all i need now is another hug (;

those words. tonight alone in my head. it keeps rining in my ears. word.

it's 1;46AM and im talking to you. just like old times. you wanted to serenade me. but i look too fugly for skype. i get so happy seeing you grow so much. though i still hate your hair colour. you dont know how special you make me feel. just like old times. you hate that i game, yet so do you. you hate that i wear BFMV shirts, yet you have the same kind. hey, you love robbie, i love nfs. amazing isint it?

today was amazing. okay technically its yesterday but who give a damn about formalities. brenda li ying nina juliet, you guys put the O in awesome. and O stands for OHmygosh. OMG lame. slap me. we did so well that i needed to pinch myself in order to really believe what david told us.

mel, all i have to say is you are one tough cookie. you dont know how much respect i have for you babe! (:

dancesport has become my sub-religion. help.

gosh. my legs feel like rubber. had dancesport technique class at about 3.30 this afternoon, till about 6 i think? gosh we had to try and do splits and it hurt like shiot! yes, shiot. hahahaa. i still dont know how into dancesport i am. its so unlike the things im used to doing. and plus, i aint the most graceful person. ive got 2 1/2 half feet. heh.

tired. stress. what can i say.
waiting on you

im in RMD class right now, waiting for my nails to dry. li ying remembered to bring her awesome pastel green nail colour! hehehe. other than the fact that my throat feels like its been grated with a meat grinder, im in high spirits.

yesterday was madness though. i was already suffering from lack of sleep from apec, and the past 2 days aint helping. i had soccer on monday and sweated so hard my undies got soaked. okay tmi. hahaha but seriously! then tues i forgot i had red camp, but remembered to wear my black collared tee. so i had school from 8 to 12, RMD discussion from 12 to 1.30, and red camp touring business madness till about 5. hehehe saw so many year-mates! yay ian! (: twas so fun meeting them again. means we're gonna be schoolmates yet again. woo!

yeah then after that i had to rush off, all sweaty to the dancesport meeting. i seriously didnt even know there was a meeting till mel told me yesterday morning. haahha. so glad everything fits in though. meeting was a huge headache. gosh. lets list down the things me and mel gotta do eh?

basically there's this Intra School Dance Competition on the 28th December, and its called the Christmas Ball. lovelyyy!!! me and mel are aiming to compete ourselves, but i dont exactly have a confirmed partner, so thats kinda sad. but in the meantime, checklist!

- programme booklet design
- programme schedule
- cost of medals, token of appreiation, certificates blah
- banner design
- logo design

okay hats all i can think of right now. having a brain block. woke up so dead this morning, but after my awesome sauteed mushrooms with spread cheese & a slice of kraft cheese sandwich, im better. still super sleepy, but red bull helped. i need those wings right now..

so im also falling sick, and i better get a new box of panadol extra. i love the pills, theyre bright orange! okay i dont binge on them or anything, its just real affective. one pill got me all better previously. yay!

long, long day. need more red bull

okay so apec came and went. i cnt believe i was too bored to blog. ive got so much to say. firstly:

oh yeah, thats taufik and hady. hahaa okay its no big fat big deal, but hey, its still cool! first 2 girls from left to right; rachel & sylvia. theyre into taufik. me and raudha are into hady ^^. wee. okay i so unleashed our fangirl side la.

gosh im too lazy to blog. slap me.

3RD FEB. SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM. MUSE. BITE ME.

i cant believe it. its so soon. thank God for nina. she was the one who saw one of her friend's facebook statuses. then i saw this

my life is awesome

so anyway, while waiting for the ticket pricing to come out, im just gonna contain myself. at least try to. you should have heard me scream. gosh. i think i broke someone's eardrums. I-AM-SO-PSYCHED.

in the lights of the upcoming concert-of-2010, imma print a muse shirt. hopefully.

91 days babeh!

gosh im so smacking tired. dee's back from iceland, yay! you should be receiving my letter soon dee! hehe i cant wait. hope you love it (:

okay so today we had soccer as usual, and we went on a field trip for CATS class today. word. went to the singapore national museum. brought back many memories. some not so nice. but hey, muse were at fort canning, which is just behind the museum, im a happy to be near the awesome place again. havent gone to a friggin gig since mcr. gosh. i wanna wanna go to green day! but i dont know if we can even afford the friggin tics. frig frig! the free standing ones ost about 128 each. boosha. so if its me & my sis then its already 256. ouch! okay i need to use the toilet soon.. haha.

okay so today during the museum trip, though i got to look at my awesome eyecandy alot, aiyah. he's obviously interested in this other girl. hahaha. not that i care much. he's just so cute. btw i think i just made nina's dreams come true today, no? hahahahahah! gosh awesomeness.

yes, june love, fortnightly meetings yes? (:

oh yes, saw joavan at plaza sing today. omg joavan hope youre okay!!

i miss listening to music sooo much. i need a phone with music space. *hinthint* *coughiphone*cough.


anyway, this song came in my head earlier today. omg i rmb i was sooo into it! i think it was the song that got me into avenged sevenfold too. amazing shit. matt shadows = love. yay. its so funny. i could sing any of the songs i love to death and i bet no one would recognise the song. i need june! haha. my music+cry+toilet buddy. no knows my playlist like june. and dee. but dee will probably say eeeeeee. weeeee!

still feeling slightly annoyed. i have no idea why though. word.

hello world. as im typing this, a super long parade of the chinese new year cymbals people are passing my block. gosh. living on the first floor is pretty annoying sometimes. just finished crying like a cow from p.s. i love you. omg i swear its a gazillion time more touching than love actually. i didnt watch it from the start though, but still. cried like, sobbing terribly crying. haahah! im such a baby. gawd. plus gerard butler's accent never goes out of style (:

okay so we had radio today im the incredibly cold & haunted 8th floor. wee. haha so the teacher told the ghost stories and i got spooked. hahaha. so glad i brought my sis's enourmous sweater today. its heavy duty, seriously.

i wish the tension in the class went away, but i know thats asking for too much. just hoping everyone will forget this asap. sucks having weird awkwardness.

okay im missing listening to music sooo much. rawr. since i lost my phone, i havent been listening to anything much other than the occasional 987fm. i miss my matt bellamy and bert and brandon boyd. eh. bellamy, bert & boyd. WOO. they make my life go round babeh.

rawr imma be missing school for 3 days from the 11th. silly apec rehersals. but it should be one hellof a fun time though. im just hoping i dont miss that much of school work.

ive got over it. at least i think i did.